"Conflicting wishes cannot be my will."
"There is no other will for me to have" (1:2) except the Will of God. No other will exists. The idea that there could be something--the devil, myself, even a part of myself--that is opposed to God is the root idea of separation. Trying to "make another will" (1:3) is futile; nothing exists outside of God, the Ground of all being. Trying to make a will other than God's is the source of pain (1:3); pain is the false witness to the attempt.
If no will but God's exists, then "conflicting wishes cannot be my will." The apparent experience of mental conflict I feel, the mental war between the Jekyll and Hyde within myself, must be an illusion and cannot be what I want. I must learn to accept that the desires in me that seem to be in conflict with my true Self are not real, and do not contain any truth about me. They do not mean I am depraved or hopeless. They mean nothing at all.
I have no alternative. "I must accept Your Will for me, and enter into peace where conflict is impossible, Your Son is one with You in being and in will, and nothing contradicts the holy truth that I remain as You created me" (1:5).
In simple terms, God created me; I did not. What I am is not the result of my independent choice. I am as God created me. I have no choice in the matter. Total peace is impossible until I accept this as the truth, and let myself fall back into what is so, putting an end to my fight with reality. Let me end the war; let me surrender to my Self.
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