LONGER: 1 time for about 15 minutes
- For 3 or 4 minutes, read over the ideas and comments slowly (repeatedly if
you wish) and think about them.
- Close your eyes and spend the remainder of the time listening quietly and
attentively. There is a message for you. Be confident you will receive it, for
it belongs to you and you want it. If you have distracting thoughts realize
they have no meaning or power. Replace them with your will to succeed. Trust it
to carry you past distractions. If your mind still wanders, repeat first phase
First half of day: "My grievances hide the light of the world in me."
Second half of day: "My salvation comes from me."
RESPONSE TO TEMPTATION: You may use these specific forms or your own words:
First half of day: "Let me not use this as a block to sight." "The light of the world will shine all this away." "I have no need for this. I want to see."
Second half of the day: "Let this not tempt me to look away from me for my salvation. "I will not let this interfere with my awareness of the Source of my salvation." "This has no power to remove salvation from me."
"This" is grievances: anything I react to with less than the perfect love which is my reality. Anything I do not like, or push away from me, or blame for my problems, or look upon as less than God's creation. Anything within myself I hold with something other than compassion and forgiveness. "My grievances show me what is not there" (1:2). They cause me to see something that is not real, and I react with fear or hatred or anger. My reactions are as inappropriate as the fear of a child in the dark at a flapping curtain. I am seeing something that isn't there, because only what God created is real. I am jumping at shadows when the reality is sheer beauty. The grievances not only show me things that aren't real, they hide what I really want.
If this is what my grievances really do, why would I want them? I do not really want them; I have used them in a mistaken attempt to protect myself, but I can recognize now that I no longer want them nor need them. I do not blame myself for having chosen them in the past but I do not need to continue to choose them now. I want to see and so I lay them aside joyfully, without guilt, without regret.
What I am looking for is in my Self (3:3). I won't look outside of myself today. "It is not found outside and then brought in. But from within me it will reach beyond, and everything I see will but reflect the light that shines in me and in itself" (3:6-7). My grievances tempt me to look outside for salvation, thinking I know what must change out there to bring me peace, feeling anger or sorrow or betrayal as I look on the things I blame for my loss of peace. But I recognize today that the answer is in my Self. Rather than seeking for the light, I will be the light today, and lighten my whole world.
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